Back in November I filled in a proposal for this years MOVING WITH THE TIMES. It’s the evening in Dancin’ oxford ( dance festival) when local dancers get to show /strut their stuff.
Ive performed in the last two and was going to give this year’s a miss. I mean, I’m in London two days a week at college, researching academia on my journeys/weekends/ evenings, teaching primary school classes, over 50’s dance classes arranging childcare AND being a mum… I’m saying I have a lot on my plate right now, so much so that it would be a tad foolish to take on anything else. Wouldn’t it?
So, on the day of the deadline for proposals I was filled with a sinking feeling that I was going to miss something this year, something that is always a springboard for bigger ideas for me. It Is also a link with the amazing organisation that is Oxford Dance Forum who have really supported my journey back into this world a great deal. I’m very keen not to lose that link with the dance community here. My lessons finished and I ran to the library to sit and think about my proposal, here is a summary of my thoughts at this time:
“I MUST BE CRAZY IMUST BE CRAZY I MUST BE CRAZY I MUST BE CRAZY I MUST BE CRAZY I MUST BE CRAZY I MUST BE CRAZYWHAT ABOUT THE CHILDCARE I MUST BE CRAZY I MUST BE CRAZY I WANT TO MAKE SOMETHINGI MUST BE CRAZY I MUST BE CRAZY I MUST BE CRA…”
You get the picture. But there was a nugget in there. I cant resist a nugget. Nuggets eat your brain. It was the thought of having to arrange any more childcare which was driving me mad so why not make a piece with my daughter? Then she would be with me and all would be well.
My proposal, fitting with the theme of ‘Moving with the Times’ was one that used the biological clock as a theme a link. It outlined how the piece would explore spatially how we have endless options to go wherever (literally and in more abstract terms) and that after a child was born our space was confined, our options closed. It sounds a bit cynical I know, but you are talking to a woman who is doing her dream MA, and has her kids and is aware that she is mightily lucky. I promise.
Anyway, the point is this, the piece HASN’T ended up that way. During rehearsal and through spending time with my pretty amazing daughter, the structure has flipped. I now travel on a given path and am thrown into play, delight, new space and exhaustion by my offspring. It’s been a process of beauty and I can only hope that the performance will reflect it. Its been a total joy working with her. We’ve had the amazing Erika Montenegro working with us, guiding Edie and challenging us both.